I really hope this blesses someone who is struggling today…
My devotion time this morning centered on:
Isaiah 50:10-11 Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of his servant? Let him who walks in the dark, who has no light trust in the name of the Lord and rely on his God. But now, all you who light fires and provide yourselves with flaming torches, go, walk in the light of your fires and of the torches you have set ablaze. This is what you shall receive from my hand: You will lie down in torment.
In My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers describes how when God is giving someone a vision he hides them in the shadow of his hand. Shadows are dark, kind of spooky and cold places. I don’t much like to be in them… unless of course it’s really HOT. Then shadows become a cool refuge. When the heat is on and we are being tested, God hides us in the shadow of his hand. In that place we wait and trust in him to sustain us until it is safe to come out.
The problem is, at least for me I really don’t like to wait much and I hate being in the dark… so I tend to try to light a torch and use my own resourcefulness to work my way out of the darkness. Guess what I get when I do that- I get to lie down in torment!
Friends, I have been there it’s no fun. I often get frustrated with God and try to speed things along or anticipate the next move. As soon as I finished cancer treatment in 2007 I did this by “giving back”, volunteering for everything breast cancer related and even starting a non-profit. The problem is I was still supposed to be waiting in the shadow, and I really had little to give. There were still things God needed to teach me and those efforts were my own way of making my cancer work for good. Now I am resting in the shadow and waiting on God to reveal to me his way of working this out for good- trusting that it will be infinitely more than I could ever imagine. As I do this I no longer lie down in torment but have taken hold of the peace that only God can offer in this life.
What about you? What are you trusting in- your own resourcefulness, others opinions, books, other joys in your life? Or have you placed your confidence in God? Are you willing to wait in his shadow, rest in his refuge and trust in his timing? Do you want to lie down in torment or peace? I can attest peace is much better!